Oh my god, 1999 me just referred to having been with the guy for one month. I'm watching the wrong break-up! We broke up after a month, then we broke up again after a year. After the year, my consciousness cracked open for the first time in a way that stayed open, and I changed how I was living. Like I had a whining-to-gratitude flip. But we are looking at another year before that happens. Ay! Logging video is a stomache-tchurner. Now I'm crying my eyes out. Oh, little unconscious girl who can't see even the patterns on the wallpaper. Poor 1999 me.